It can be an uncomfortable feeling knowing that you are being used. It can become a source of great anxiety when you know it, but aren’t sure in what capacity, or what the result will be. But it can also be exhilarating!
“WHAT?” you might say.
You heard me right. It can be exhilarating!
I’m talking about being used by God. I am always amazed at how He chooses to use us. He could bring His will to completion in an instant, and yet He chooses to use us; walk with us; journey with us!
The number of times I want something to happen instantaneously – the microwave generation showing itself within me again – and I become frustrated at what I perceive as: “God once more taking His time”, only to realise that He was taking His time FOR MY SAKE! The anticipated event, result, achievement, change, etc finally occurs and I pause to look back over the journey that brought it to be … and I see that God has worked a change within me, a change for which time was needed in order for it to take place.
Let me move from abstract to concrete by bringing in an example.
Recently, I’ve been reflected on the journey God has had Redefined Ministries on. When we started He told us: “Don’t despise the day of small beginnings” (see Zech. 4). Well, it took us two years to get to the point we’re at now – starting the practical work. But, oh, what foundations He has laid!
During the past two years I have wrestled with God! I knew He could bring the finance and the people for the work to begin then and there, but it would not have been beneficial. Instead, he laid solid foundations. He built upon the rock, not sand. We were able to invest two years into intercession for the nation, ministry, community and team; Innocent has been able to do a Discipleship Training School; the community has invested into the vision and now owns it as its own; we’ve built a strong team, dedicated to the vision; people are gaining awareness of and hope for the Congo; our vision is clear and we have a strategy to complete the work as well as networks in the needed areas to make it successful. All this, God brought together.
But this is not all that He has done. I mentioned that Innocent completed a Discipleship Training School. This is just one example of God investing in us as individuals and growing our faith for this task. He has certainly worked in me, too. I did not believe I had the faith for our vision, but God has shown me that He truly meant His words:
“If you had faith like a grain of mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you.” (Luke 17:6).
My faith is not great; it is small, like a mustard seed. And yet GOD IS USING ME! He is using me to help the people of Mahagi, He is using me to accomplish His will, and He is using me in ways that I am blind to but which bring Him glory.
We can all have faith like a mustard seed; that’s the exciting thing! Anyone with any measure of faith, He will use. The question is, will you let Him? Will you trust Him enough to step forward and say: “Use me, Lord!”.
Don’t worry about the how just yet – remember He will journey with you – just acknowledge that you, too, have faith that is small, like a mustard seed, and that you are willing to be used by Him!