Don’t worry – I’m not going to start talking OT terminology and correct manual handling postures (although I did do some teaching on manual handling for work recently).
In recent posts you may have noticed a theme in my life: taking on too much and then allowing the different responsibilities to stress me out.
At the beginning of this season, I felt that it would be a time of coming on my knees before God. Now, when I pictured this, I thought: “great, another trying season!” and the image in my mind was that I’d be on my knees, crying out to God to give me strength. This is definitely what I’ve been doing in recent weeks, but I don’t think it was what God had in mind. He had something better planned.
You see, I had been trying to be superwoman and only when I failed did I run to God and fall on my knees before Him. I prayed for His grace to pick myself up, His strength to endure and His Spirit to give me an energy boost. But then I stood up and tried to do it on my strength once more.
Tonight God gave me a better picture for the season. Yes, He wants me on my knees before Him, but not in a stressed out state. The picture of Mary and Martha came to mind:
And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.” (Luke 10:39-42)
I’ve allowed life to distract me and take my focus off of my Saviour. All the things that I’m trying to do, I’m trying to do for Him and His Kingdom, when He is calling me to come join Him again.
I believe one hundred percent in what I am doing ministry-wise and the work I’m doing as an OT, but it is not to be done at the expense of my relationship with God.
And it is okay for it to take time to achieve my goals. I need to learn patience and the best way to remain patient is to focus less on what I want to achieve and spend more time focusing on Jesus.
So, if you’re like me, remember to spend some time on your knees, listening avidly to Jesus. And try to serve Him whilst remaining on your knees, as it really is the best place to be.